Bean at 16 weeks

4 months wow - can't believe we are at 4 months already.
I am definitely showing now and have to go and buy preggie clothes this weekend as everthing is way too tight.
Had a bad case of the emotional blues this morning - teetering between wanting to cry and wanting to scream at someone. Unluckily J had to bear my mood but luckily he could escape to his office very quickly. This might become a interesting ride. My friends are reassuring me though that it's all part of it and I shouldn't worry.

We should be able to start feeling bean move pretty soon - haven't felt anything yet but am conscious of it all the time.

Until the next scan - bye!

Bean at 15 weeks

On Saturday Bean gave us a bit of a scare - well actually it was probably not Bean at all, and might just have been gas (embarrassing yes I know). Whatever is was, I had an unbelievable pain just below my belly button for a while which made us decide to go to the emergency room. But just as I was getting dressed, the pain miraculously disappeared. Luckily my dad was still in Cape Town and came rushing over to give me a check up. As the pain was higher up it probably wasn't Bean at all - so I probably gave Bean as big a fright as we got.
Makes you realise how fragile you think they are and how attached you are already. J and I (and my dad) were all very relieved.
In less than 3 weeks time we get to see Bean again - I can't wait - I LOVE SCANS! Would have been nice for my mom and dad to come with sometime as they didn't have them in their day.

Tiredness getting better but nausea back with a vengance. Otherwise everything going well and J and I very excited about each new development.

Bean at 14 weeks

Almost 15 weeks now and supposedly the nausea should be going away but it's still here some days and boy am I tired. After 4pm I just can't keep my eyes open. J has had to take over making dinner as I just fall asleep on the couch.

Brushing my teeth brings on immediate gagging - not cool.

Our next appointment is on 7 June when we find out if it is a boy or a girl. J would like a boy first - I'm easy.

Both J and I are reading all the preggie books and mags that we have been given by friends with kids - which are really helpful and nice to know I'm not the only person who feels that I shouldn't be allowed to be doing this yet - or at all. I go from extreme euphoria to bouts of severe doubt. All par for the course I guess.

Got our first beanie, babygrow and T-shirt for bean from Kristel, Rob, Susi and Josee - sooooooooo cute! Now I want to go shopping! Will first have to get suggestions from kids with babies as to what is the best re: prams, cots etc.

Bean at 13 weeks

Finally the day came when we would find out if bean was healthy and that everything was fine. Nervously I picked up J from work and raced to our appointment. J kindly pointed out that we were actually early and that I didn't have to speed there.
Dr Puzey took his time to check everything and said all was fine! Yay! What a relief! He said that we didn't have to do the blood test as well but after the weekend of worrying I decided to do it anyway - and all was fine with that as well.

So now we are finally allowed to tell everyone. What an exciting time and amazing experience. It is now finally becoming real as I can actually talk about it to people.

I've had to apologize to everyone for blatently lying to them over the last 3 months. Apparently some people expected as much - while others were surprised. Only 1 person at work knew - my assistant - but seeing as she has to check my email every day - that wasn't surprising.